Looks like things will never change. At some point I think I may just snap. I get sick of being treated different. I get sick of being 2nd best. It wasn't always this way..
I'm a hard worker. I bust my ass. I was working 120 hour weeks there for awhile. I try and be super mom. I make homemade meals, I take Lucas to everything and so all sorts of activities and crafts. We learn, we play, we love. Ok I'm a good mom. And a good worker. And damn it I'm a good daughter, and I'm sick of being treated like this. I'm feel like I'm being punished for being independent.
When I lived at home, laid off for 6mths, paying a custody lawyer for custody of Lucas, carless ( since Dan took mine) and wasn't getting child support, I had to pay to live there. I paid water bill, I bought groceries, I bought dog food for both dogs, cat liter and food for both cats. I helped clean, did dishes, vacuum and I did most of the cooking. While my brother has been living there pretty much the whole time minus a few points where he did move out, he didn't have to pay anything and they never stuck to making him do anything around the house. Im not blaming my brother, since my mom never stuck to whatever she said with him.
It just gets old. I see stuff being handed to him for free and always helping him in every way but when it comes to something with me it's never that easy.
When Lee and I started planning our wedding my dad said he would give us $1000 towards it. That would cover food and alcohol. I never really counted on that money because my parents talk a lot but never actually come through with it. Well good thing I never counted on it and not having a wedding anymore because what do you know, they wouldn't have it anyways.
My mom can't take a day off work to go out with me for my bachelorette party. I really want my mom to go but she says she can't. Then that following Friday we are getting married and I told my mom that she better go out in the bus after. She said at one point that she couldn't because she might have to work. That pissed m off. I bitched T her because I told her the only reason why this is even happening is because she flipped when we told her we were going to elope in Cancun. I then told her she better go or else I'm done. I told her no difference if I was having a huge reception after she still would have to take off.
We aren't doing a big wedding. We are doing a small ceremony, pictures, dinner, and bar bus. I bet we buy our dinner and most of our drinks when we shouldn't have to. We have parents and they should be picking up that small amount.
Since they aren't doing anything for my wedding they better not when it's my brother's time. If you can't do for both then you shouldn't do for either.
I'm sick of being treated different. It's like they are there 100% with him. Yet only 10% with me. And that 10% is helping with Lucas. That's my mom helping take him to school for me so I can work, or the occasional day when I need her to watch him for a few hours. But that's it. Other than that I don't ask for help or anything from them, nor do they offer.
It's not that I can't say I'm happy I'm independent it's just I feel like I don't matter. Like I don't exist to them.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Operation "CARS" Edition!
Another one of his favorites is Spongebob Ants in my Pants. This was another game he seemed to have many frustrations with. But now he's a lil pro at it!
The top of Lucas's closet is full with all sorts of board games! It's always so much fun playing a new game!.. He has some classics like Hungry hungry hippos, the 2 I mentioned above, Dont break the ice, Rock em' Sock em' .. That game I love! Board games are a fun and cheap way to bring the family together and bond! We get silly when the four of us play board games!
One of my favorite board games as a kid was Guess Who and Battle Ship. I can't wait until Lucas is a little older and we can play! All y childhood favorites I plan on introducing to him so we can have fun together and can make new memories!
Here are some pictures of Lucas when we were playing Operation tonight.
Freefly's is an awesome site to join with lots and lots of freebies! I've signed up for laundry samples, beauty samples, pet samples, food samples, and others! I love coming home and checking my mail box to see what goodies I received! The best part about it all is its all FREE!!! It doesn't take long to request a freebie. Most sites you just need to fill out a form. Although I do highly suggest using a junk email address or creating one. I didn't do this at first and ended up receiving do much spam that my old email is now my junk email and I had to make a new one for actual use.
Some other places I sign up or my freebies are...
- All you has a daily freebie deal. A few of the daily freebies I've signed up for was, Arm and Hammer tooth paste, a cologne sample, Tcby ice cream, Miracle Whip sample, Fruit Garnier shampoos sample and more! I love this Site because it's daily you sign up for a freebie and it's sort of a mystery because you can't see what the freebie is unil the day to sign up.
- Walmart also has samples that they update occasionally that you can request. They are usually pretty useful samples also.
I have a pretty good stock up of freebies that I've received in the mail. They are nice to pack for a trip or a long day out.nlike the tampons or pads. Or mini shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste, deodorant, and toothpaste samples are great for weekend getaway trips!
Another great way to receive freebies Is to look up blog giveaways and enter. I just started entering blog giveaways. Id I win something from doing a giveaway I'll make sure I come back and share!
I'm really into getting stuff cheap and free, as I'm sure everyone is. I get on my iPad daily and looks for freebies, coupons, email consumers for coupons, and enter giveaways! So if ou have some kick ass sites for me please share!
Thursday, June 14, 2012
July 13th that is.... Yeah the days seem to be going faster and faster now. Before I know it I'll be married..
The kids have their clothes. They do look cute as hell!! I just have to pick up Lucas's shoes and his bottoms. We both have our rings. We went and picked out what him and Dave are wearing. They are going in the next 2 weeks to get sized and ordered. I have to go next week to try on my dress and buy the slip and bra for it. Mandy has her dress. I have my photographer booked! Thank god Abbie is so awesome and doing it! I just love her work! I'm sooo excited that she will be doing my pictures!!! :) .. Next week we are going to meet with the pastor and also get our marriage lisence. Now I need to start working on my vows!!!
So we decided to write our own vows... I'm pretty good with words and with writing but this is one project that I think I may have a hard time doing! I'm going to start when I am off in la-la land at work lol. I figure I can jot some stuff down, at break when I'm in my car, At the gym, etc... I hope I come up with something good.
I'm curious to see how bad I freak out come wedding day. I know we are having a super small ceremony but I am terrified now, I can't imagine how I'll be come that morning. I told Lee today that I think that following week is when I'll really panic. Once it's final.. Ohhh man look out!!! I'm gonna freak like I've never freaked before! Lol
Everything will be final. I'll officially be Mrs. decker.. I'll be a Mrs. Omg!!!! Lol I won't be a Textor anymore. That is gina take some getting used to.. Wow.. And I mean... I'll be married! Lol.. Ouch! That's scaryyyyyy!
Lee doesn't seem to be nervous or scared whatsoever. I don't understand how he's not?? He's so excited to get married. Lol
I am excited to wear my dress though. It's been along time since I tried it on, I can't wait! Lol
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
7 things I love about summer1. Festivals, carnivals, and fairs!
2. Swimming in the pool or playing at the beach
3. Playing outside with the kiddos!
4. Driving with the windows down and the windows down!
5. Drinks and cookouts outside!
6. The warm sunshine.!
7. Zooing it!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
I was soooooo excited to try out my new insoles! I knew right away when I was chosen for this campaign that I was going to use them in my work shoes. I work in a factory standing on cement and do a lot of standing in one spot and also walking.
I must say I was disappointed! I thought, "Well I'll give them a chance, its only the first day and maybe I need to get used to the ." Keep in mind this is my first time ever actually using insoles! So I have nothing to compare my new insoles with except the ones that are already in my shoes lol!
Maybe my expectations were to high. But they didn't help my feet much. I could tell a little difference but not a drastic one. My feet and heels still hurt.
I still use the insoles in my shoes for work on a daily basis. I have some relief on my heel with the insoles in, I just don't feel like I'm walking on water lol. I do not think they make a big enough difference to go out and buy a pair.
I've had friends in the past rant and rave About Dr Scholl's gel inserts. I am going to give them coupons and tell them to give these a try. I'm curious to see if this is just me, I'd love their opinion. I have always heard great things about the gel inserts. Just because I tried this specific kind wouldn't stop me from buying other insoles from Dr Scholl's.