7 things

7 Dislikes

1. Feet!

2. The cold... Brrrr I freeze!

3. Ghetto crap! Hello speak English!!

4. Waiting

5. Elevators

6. Whiskey

7. Fake people

It's coming fast!

July 13th that is.... Yeah the days seem to be going faster and faster now. Before I know it I'll be married..

The kids have their clothes. They do look cute as hell!! I just have to pick up Lucas's shoes and his bottoms. We both have our rings. We went and picked out what him and Dave are wearing. They are going in the next 2 weeks to get sized and ordered. I have to go next week to try on my dress and buy the slip and bra for it. Mandy has her dress. I have my photographer booked! Thank god Abbie is so awesome and doing it! I just love her work! I'm sooo excited that she will be doing my pictures!!! :) .. Next week we are going to meet with the pastor and also get our marriage lisence. Now I need to start working on my vows!!!




So we decided to write our own vows... I'm pretty good with words and with writing but this is one project that I think I may have a hard time doing! I'm going to start when I am off in la-la land at work lol. I figure I can jot some stuff down, at break when I'm in my car, At the gym, etc... I hope I come up with something good.




I'm curious to see how bad I freak out come wedding day. I know we are having a super small ceremony but I am terrified now, I can't imagine how I'll be come that morning. I told Lee today that I think that following week is when I'll really panic. Once it's final.. Ohhh man look out!!! I'm gonna freak like I've never freaked before! Lol




Everything will be final. I'll officially be Mrs. decker.. I'll be a Mrs. Omg!!!! Lol I won't be a Textor anymore. That is gina take some getting used to.. Wow.. And I mean... I'll be married! Lol.. Ouch! That's scaryyyyyy!




Lee doesn't seem to be nervous or scared whatsoever. I don't understand how he's not?? He's so excited to get married. Lol




I am excited to wear my dress though. It's been along time since I tried it on, I can't wait! Lol

7 things

7 things I love about summer

1. Festivals, carnivals, and fairs!

2. Swimming in the pool or playing at the beach

3. Playing outside with the kiddos!

4. Driving with the windows down and the windows down!

5. Drinks and cookouts outside!

6. The warm sunshine.!

7. Zooing it!

7 things

7 Favorite Movies

1. The Dark Knight

2. The Time Traveler's Wife

3. Iron Man

4. The Avenger's

5. V for Vendetta

6. The Notebook

7. Dirty Dancing

Dr Scholl's Massaging Gel Insoles

I received my kit in the mail a couple weeks ago.. Inside my kit were the Dr Scholl's Massaging Gel Inserts with a stack of coupons!

I was soooooo excited to try out my new insoles! I knew right away when I was chosen for this campaign that I was going to use them in my work shoes. I work in a factory standing on cement and do a lot of standing in one spot and also walking.

I must say I was disappointed! I thought, "Well I'll give them a chance, its only the first day and maybe I need to get used to the ." Keep in mind this is my first time ever actually using insoles! So I have nothing to compare my new insoles with except the ones that are already in my shoes lol!

Maybe my expectations were to high. But they didn't help my feet much. I could tell a little difference but not a drastic one. My feet and heels still hurt.

I still use the insoles in my shoes for work on a daily basis. I have some relief on my heel with the insoles in, I just don't feel like I'm walking on water lol. I do not think they make a big enough difference to go out and buy a pair.

I've had friends in the past rant and rave About Dr Scholl's gel inserts. I am going to give them coupons and tell them to give these a try. I'm curious to see if this is just me, I'd love their opinion. I have always heard great things about the gel inserts. Just because I tried this specific kind wouldn't stop me from buying other insoles from Dr Scholl's.

 

Stay parked next time,

Tonight I went to my parents house to drop of the car seat. Lee ran it inside because he said he didn't want to be there forever because he wanted to go in and watch the game. Well since he was taking forever I shut the car off and ran inside. Where I walked into my father and Lee talking... My father had obviously been drinking... I hate when he acts like that. He was feeling no pain that's for sure.. Telling me how nice I looked and gave me a hug and said it was nice to see his long lost daughter. Ok for one... That's not how we act. We don't hug or he doesn't show affection.. Unless he's been drinking.. He gave me a few more compliments and I started feeling uncomfortable because when he acts like that I don't know how to respond. So I sit on the floor and give Chance, our family dog, some lovings. My dad starts talking about how shittynof a vacation he had (my parents went up north a few hours to a cabin for like 3 days) and how him and my mom fought. He started cutting her down and bitching about her.. Which I started to try and change the subject. Especially since that's always one of the main topics of conversation is something negative about my mom. As he continues to bitch and complain about how miserable heh was while away, I couldn't help but think to myself, why continue to go then? Why do you insist on taking my mom on a mini getaway knowing your just lying to make it hell for not only her but you? It doesn't seem to register apparently. It's like every time I am over at my parents house and my father is there its the same shit!.. I really don't stop over anymore. He just has this way of making your feel so sad when you leave to go home. He can't ever be happy. He has to try and make everyone else feel horrible. Today he gave me compliments and I didn't know how to respond because well, frankly my dad doesn't give them very often. And if he does he makes sure to say something negative to erase the positive comment he just shared. I wish that I had a father who actually acted like one. Who I could go to when I needed to talk or needed something. Not someone who just makes me feel worse about myself after we have a conversation. I love him to death dont get me wrong. But when I think about how I feel about him it reminds me of when my grandma passed away (his mom). I didn't know how to feel. My grandma was a horrible person. She was a shitty mom, a shitty grandmother, just a shitty person in general. She was selfish. She was a liar. A fraud. Fake. Miserable. Negative. Person. And my father followed right in her footsteps. And when she passed away she did it alone. The only two people who went to visit her was myself and my cousin Jeff. Her kids didn't even see her. They only went to the funeral for show. Which my dad didn't even go. When I got the call I cried but didn't know how felt. She treated me like total shit and my brother like he walked on water. Yet I was always there for her. (I was 18 when she passed away, even though her mind was gone a few years before that) I loved her but I was confused. I broke down in front of the funeral home before I went in, but that was the last tear I shed. That reminds me of my father. Although I love my father . I just look at it like that. I don't know how I feel half the time. As I'm sitting here with many thoughts running through my mind on this subject, I just can't seem to spit it all out. All I can think is how I just wish I never went in to get Lee. How I wish today didn't happen. All it did was hurt...

Hmmmmmm..... Grrrrrr....

hmmmmm.... It's amazing how you think some people are but you are totally wrong.. How you can know someone for a long time or just a short time and you think you know them and turns out you don't. How they tell you something and it's a total lie! I flat out asked a question to someone and I got an answer then turns out I find out the answer I was given wasn't the truth. I honestly don't get it though. I don't understand why people can't just be up front and honest with other people. I might not always say exactly how I feel but I'm a pretty upfront and honest person and I expect to be treated the same way in return. I'm sooooooo frustrated I can't even put it into words!!!